Monday, February 20, 2017

I wish I wasn't so lazy

It's one of the worst feelings ever: knowing what I should be doing, and not doing it. Out of procrastination and laziness.

I'm surrounded by geniuses. I walk the goddamn streets that geniuses have previously walked. Literally (not figuratively, because I sure as hell as too lazy to be following their footsteps).
Literally, on the streets of Palo Alto. For some reason, I'm reading Elon Musk's biography and Peter Thiel's book Zero to One at the same time right now. They've started out out of offices that I've walked or driven past.

I can't seem to stop comparing myself to others.
I can't seem to stop wanting to be great.
But I also can't seem to stop being lazy.
This has got to be the dumbest shit ever. Laziness. ADD. Procrastination. ADHD. Whatever the fuck you call it.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Reminder to DGAF about things I can't control and just roll with it

I got an oil change today. Whenever I start creeping up on the oil-change mileage time, I get stressed out because I procrastinate on it, and it feels like I'm doing irrevocable damage to my car.

After the oil change, I drove around and felt that the car seemed slightly lower on power and that the noises it made were also slightly different. I wasn't sure if something was truly wrong with my car of it I was just paranoid, but I spent the next hour reading up on it (1/3rd of that time while on the toilet).

One common reason for a lack of power for my Subaru seemed to be piston ringland cracking, which was a costly thing to fix. Other symptoms of piston ringland cracks were:

  • Low power - I had this issue
  • Not reaching target boost of 14.5psi (or 0.1MPA) - I had this issue
  • Rough idle
  • Smoke upon startup and acceleration
  • Car taking oil (engine oil seems to disappear, some say as much as a quart per 100 miles)
  • Check engine light

Being paranoid, I also thought I began to see some smoke from the tailpipe when I started the car, but I couldn't be sure if it was just condensation or vapor.

Anyway, I ended up googling the heck out of it, and there's one forum where another Subaru driver asked how many miles have people driven with a cracked piston ring. (Because I wanted to see how bad it can get if a cracked piston ringland was indeed my problem, since I'm in no financial condition to replace the engine short block).

Some answers were quite cautious:
"I wouldn't drive it at all personally. Sure you can drive the car but you risk making things worse. When mine went i drove it home and parked it until i was ready to replace the pistons"

Others were more adventurous:"I had 2 cracked ringland on my 2011 at 12,000 miles and drove 2 months, ate almost two quarts of oil and liked to backfire and idle rough sometimes. Currently in process of a rebuild."

"cracked mine last sept and drove it till march. drove it everyday as well. was at 65lbs of comp on #4"

"Just passed 3000 miles. Still no symptoms except blowby -- the CEL even stopped for the past several days"

And then there's this BAMF who just DGAF:"My 99 2.2 wagon had cracked ringlands when I bought it, went through a quart of oil a week but just kept an eye on it every time I got gas I checked the oil. Drove it regularly for 40k or so with no change. Ive torn down several EJ20 and EJ25 blocks to find many cracked ringlands. Never did they ever dislodge. I just scrapped a heap of 20 or so cracked pistons. lol."

So it kinda put me at ease. I'll just wait it out until the symptoms become undeniably overwhelming.


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Links relevant to AMD, AREDS and AREDS2

AMD is Age-Related Macular Degeneration (AMD):

AREDS and AREDS2 (Age-Related Eye Disease Study) are 2 studies conducted by the NIH that resulted in a recommdation of supplements to take to combat AMD:

Several drug companies then produced the formula, but not all stuck to the study's recommendation

Friday, November 25, 2016

Shitty Haikus

Today is Sunday
And tomorrow is Monday
Damn, I want a job

It is so lonely
In bed, but can’t fall asleep
To-do list, miles deep

All that I do, fails
This feeling never subsides
All that I touch, dies

Earth hurling through space
The rapid approach of dawn
5am, can’t sleep

If only I could,
git clone, branch, and merge myself.

Black friday shopping
rampant consumerism
just to save 30 bucks
at the cost of 4 hours of shopping
but some are not as fortunate to value their own time as much
and a deal is a deal
gifts need to be given and traditions need to be upheld
Even if living from paycheck to paycheck

Buying things that we don't need
Because they were on sale
To fuel that dopamine kick
At the destruction of the earth
Fucking capitalistic consumerism...

4 bucks for a cup of coffee
It's a bit expensive
Do I really want that
Swipe credit card plastic
Thank you, here you go and have a good day
I haven't touched cash in weeks
Is this real
4 bucks for a fucking coffee?

Monday, November 7, 2016

Windows 10 has Linux Bash Shell!!

doooodd, Windows 10 now has a linux bash shell! (As of the Windows 10 Redstone upgrade on August 2, 2016)

The war is over! I'm gonna try to never buy an Apple product ever again!
(So far I've only bought 1 Apple product in my life (a macbook) still no iPhone/iPad/iPod/iPOS yet, thank goodness.)

Apple decided to go fuck itself  by making expensive as hell laptops that have no ports and dumbass features like a 1 pixel wide touchscreen bar that costs $1800. (And the entry level $1500 Macbook pro doesn't even have this dumbass narrow touchscreen.)

I've been wanting a convertible tablet/pc for several years now and Mac isn't even close to making one, while on the PC side, there are several Thinkpad Yoga's/MS Surfaces/etc to choose from (ok fine, some of them don't have ports either).

For several years, I've been wanting ONE device that can do the following (in order of priority):
1. A laptop I can program on
2. A tablet for reading or video watching (e.g. while on a train)
3. A stylus that lets me take handwritten notes with so I can ditch pen/paper notebooks (and also so I don't have to flip through hundreds of pages of notes to find that one note)

Some other weirder requirements:
4. Thin bezel (the dumbass macbook still has a huge 1" ring of nothing-ness surrounding the screen, wasting room)
5. Can potentially play computer games

I caved and bought a macbook last year because it has a Bash shell terminal. But now with Bash shell on Windows 10, requirement 1 is fulfilled on PC! So screw you Apple!

At one point, I was wondering what Microsoft still had going for it what with the advent of Google Docs taking away Microsoft Office market share, Macbooks being more popular than PCs, and most developers preferring open source instead of Windows .NET framework (because Microsoft isn't considered "cool"). But I guess Microsoft never stopped innovating. They kept experimenting and now, doing things such as going into the hardware space with the Surface line, and now, they're cooler than Macs. They're not gonna turn into Yahoo. I can't wait till I need to replace my current macbook pro in a year or so so I can AVOID getting the new macbook pro. (Please don't dissapoint me Microsoft)

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Random things I learned today about cancer and personal cancer treatment

Pros about the field:
1) growing at 17%
2) large social impact 3) family social impact (better know what the do about cancer) Cons about the field: 1) Field is saturated, high competition 2) it is a pit, you learn very specific things to cancer research 3) if you do bioinformatics and bio computation, it's even more of a pit with skills that can't transfer out Example of successful personalized and targeted cancer treatment (personalized medicine = sequence the person's DNA, and find a drug for that specific person's DNA and cancer type, as opposed to just using chemotherapy): 1) philadephia chromosome found in lukemia patients. Gleevec, drug that targets that chromose mades death rate go from 95% to 5% 2) but as soon as patient stops taking gleevec, cancer comes back 3) because there are cancer cells and cancer stem cells, each can regenerate the other, so both would have to be wipped out at the same time, but cancers can survive different attacks 4) similar thing was done for skin cancer, but drug only worked for 6 months, then cancer came back even worse than before 5) that was because targeting 1 thing about the cancer almost never works, because the cancer mutates and avoids that. 6) you need to target like 50 things about that cancer, but then that basically becomes chemotherapy 7) chemotherapy targets/kills everything, including the good stuff. Chemo takes person as close to death as possible, without killing them. 8) crispr can only cut in 1 place. 9) genetic engineering is not allowed. crispr can maybe just cut the cancer dna out of sperm, and then allow that to have healthy baby End stage cancer treatment: 1) End stage curing cancer doesn't work. Stage 3b=inoperable, stage 4 = metasized to all other organs, can't cut 2) cancer prevention works, but not treatment? 3) end stage cancer will almost never succeed, can only work in delaying 4) but, everything is just about delaying death. when most people die of old age, they probably have a cancer within them, but they just are not showing clinical symptoms yet Why prevention works and what is end-stage cancer: 1) As cancer develops, it's dna does a sort of micro-evolution, making it more and more resistant to drugs. Early on, cancer cell will detect that it's bad and try to kill itself, later on, cancer dna has developed ability to prevent killing itself. 2) Prevention = detecting cancer early on enough such that drug treatments still work. 3) Biopsy would basically be needed for such early detection, from people who feel no illness symptoms. Or, can also find patients based on familial traits. 4) prevention treatment would also involve drugs.