Monday, March 19, 2012

stuff dreams are made of

I was working on a grad school statement of purpose and wanted to use the term "the stuff dreams are made of". So i decided to google that term. I came upon this rather informative website:   

Apparently, the phrase might have come from Shakespeare's the Tempest:

Our revels now are ended. These our actors,
As I foretold you, were all spirits, and
Are melted into air, into thin air:
And like the baseless fabric of this vision,
The cloud-capp'd tow'rs, the gorgeous palaces,
The solemn temples, the great globe itself,
Yea, all which it inherit, shall dissolve,
And, like this insubstantial pageant faded,
Leave not a rack behind. We are such stuff
As dreams are made on; and our little life
Is rounded with a sleep. 

I had no idea what this meant. But the explanation floored me. Basically the quote was saying all the parties, skyscrappers, all that we inherit, the earth itself, and everything in it, will all fade away, as if it were a dream  (btw revels=parties). from dust we came and to dust we will return.

james 4:14 - What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Why blog?

I blog because I want your views, comments, likes, respect, and approval,
because it makes me feel better about myself,
because I want all the glory and attention,
because I live and seek thunderous applause from other human beings,
because I am insecure about life, about myself, and about my self worth,
and perhaps, because I have an idea to share, and I genuinely think it's a good idea that can improve the lives of those who read it.

Monday, March 12, 2012

I haven't listened to Thrice in a while

I haven't listened to Thrice in a while. but now that i did. oh peace. it brings me on my knees.

I was always one of the righteous
Never lived outside of the lines
Kept a close watch on the white wash
Disguising the dead bones inside

I was always one the good ones
Keeping tabs on everyone else

Sure that I was
One of the chosen
But I was a child of hell

But you buried me in the bright light
Yeah, you held my eyes to the sun till I could see that,
That I was worse than I ever feared I could be
But somehow, I was loved more than I ever dared to believe
Because of you

I was always one of the blameless
Or at least that's what I believed
I never thought I could have been blinded
Until I could no longer see

But you buried me in the bright light
Yeah, you held my eyes to the sun till I could see,
That I was worse than I ever feared I could be
But somehow, I was loved more than I ever dared to believe
Because of you

"Disarmed" is good too.
thrice even sounds good on dubstep:

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Newt Gingrich is a playa

Gingrich wants more religion in public life. He said, "In America, religious belief is being challenged by a cultural elite trying to create a secularized America, in which God is driven out of public life." (nytimes)

Hold on Gingrich, you believe America has become too secular and you want America to be more conservative? How the fuck can you ask for that when you've had 3 marriages and every divorce was due to the affair that caused the next marriage? That same nytimes article points out:
"He also acknowledged having an extramarital affair with Callista Bisek, then a House staff member, while leading impeachment proceedings against Mr. Clinton for lying about his own sexual transgressions."
I mean, even Hugh Hefner has only been married twice. (Hugh Hefner almost busted a Gingrich by almost marrying Crystal Harris. But that marriage was called off.) Gingrich would be the first twice divorced president. Me bashing on Gingrich basically makes me a player hater. My bad.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Pornography Addiction

I look at the puddle of mess in my hands, soaked cotton, and the limp mass of tissue. I feel disgusted and stupid for what I was ecstatic and euphoric over a few seconds ago, a few spasms ago, a few images ago. How come I never get sick of this. As if I awaken and come to my senses every time right after my last spasm, and realize it was all for nothing. But yet before the climax I forgot all of the promises I made to myself and my future. When am I going to break this habit? My mind has thousands of images - images of naked bodies, people in bedrooms. When am I going to stop?

Update 2016:
It's going stop NOW.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

2012 elections

I wouldn't vote for Romney because he's Mormon.
I'm actually quite surprised that a Mormon might become president of the United States. This is a religion that up until 1978, banned black people from fully participating:
There is a reason why one man is born black and with other disadvantages, while another is born white with great advantage. The reason is that we[white people] once had an estate before we came here, and were obedient, more or less, to the laws that were given us there. Those who were faithful in all things there received greater blessings here, and those who were not faithful received less.... There were no neutrals in the war in heaven. All took sides either with Christ or with Satan. Every man had his agency there, and men receive rewards here based upon their actions there, just as they will receive rewards hereafter for deeds done in the body. The Negro, evidently, is receiving the reward he merits.
--Joseph Fielding Smith, Doctrines of Salvation, Vol.1, pages 66-67

and Joseph Smith Jr., the founder of the Mormon church said:
Had I anything to do with the negro, I would confine them by strict law to their own species
I mean, what the fuck was he thinking? Couldn't he foresee the civil rights movement, being a prophet and all? But back to the point, I'm surprised that America is so accepting of Mormonisn today. Missouri basically launched a war against LDS in 1838 :
...Violence broke out again at an election riot in 1838...When the Mormons attacked a duly authorized militia under the belief it was an anti-Mormon mob, Missouri’s governor, Lilburn Boggs, ordered the Saints expelled from the state, or “exterminated,” if necessary. (
Even after Mormons established a community hundreds of miles away in the Salt Lake Valley in 1847, anti-Mormon activists in Utah Territory convinced U.S. President James Buchanan that the Mormons in the territory were rebelling against the United States.... President Buchanan sent one-third of the American standing army in 1857 to Utah in what is known as the Utah War. (
Mormonism believes in aliens from outer space, and that the ruler of our planet is God/Jesus. and if you're a good mormon, you'll get your own planet too and be God as well! yay! Mormon's believe that “As man now is, God once was: As God now is, man may be".(Lorenzo Snow)
(i read up on this from Wikipedia, the definitive authority on everything:

Also, I wouldn't vote for Santorum because he's Catholic.

I also wouldn't vote for Gingrich, because he was married 3 times, and he's fat. (and according to wikipedia, there were "Eighty-four ethics charges were filed against Gingrich during his term as Speaker"? ) More info about Gingrich's fatness can be found here:

If it's any of those 3 going against Obama, I'm voting for Obama for sure. Plus, I owe him one because I voted for Mccain in '08. (I know, the fuck was i thinking right?) To sum it up, i'm basically not voting for romney, santorum, or gingrich because they're mormon, catholic, fat.

At the end up of day, the above was just a rant against Mormonism. The Mormons and Catholics i know are some of the nicest, most diligent, respectful, tolerant, disciplined people i know. And the Romney's do not seem to be stereotypical of racism at all, in fact, i have to give props to the Romney family for their stance with the civil rights movement: 

(but i'm sorry, the guy is still a mormon, and i gotta say, mormonism is pretty fucking weird. but then again, all religions are weird)

shit, Gingrich is also catholic, definitely not voting for him